As I sit here, I reflect on all you have done in my life and continue to do on a daily basis. I am truly blown away by the grace you have deeply bestowed upon my life. When I really begin to think about the depth of your love, my mind begins to go wild because it cannot fathom it. I try so very hard, but it’s so extremely impossible. It’s all I can do but just cry. I feel so unbelievably unworthy of your mercy, grace and love in my life. I do not deserve one single ounce of it but I am so so so deeply grateful for it. You are an amazing God. There are no words that could ever describe just how truly amazing. My beating heart is one of a million testaments of your incredible wonder. Just the very thought that you love me enough to give me the next breath that I will breathe, is more than my mind can grasp. I’m so humbled.
Thank you for creating me. Thank you for giving my life meaning and for having a plan for me. Thank you for taking care of me every step of the way…. from the moment my life began in my mother’s womb, until now. Thank you for giving me a new day each morning. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for challenges, as they teach me to grow and be stronger. Thank you for teaching me what true, unconditional love means and is, because you show it to me every single day. Thank you for believing in me and showing me what my true potential is capable of. Thank you for giving me daily joy, I am so happy because of you. Thank you for giving me a heart full of dreams, and the passion to chase after them. Thank you for opening my eyes to your truth, as I would never want to live blindly in a dark world, unaware of your love. Thank you for saving me, for it is truly the greatest gift I have ever been given. Thank you for inspiring me with your majestic beauty… it is everywhere I look. Thank you for your many blessings, everything that I am is because of you. Thank you for being the best friend I could ever possibly have. Thank you for always showing up right when I need you. Thank you for always speaking to me, even in the most random of ways. Thank you that even when I fall, you are there to pick me up again. Thank you for teaching me what true feminine beauty is, and giving me a heart to show the women of this world that they ARE beautiful because you created them to be. Thank you for teaching me compassion for others. Thank you for giving me freedom. Thank you for always protecting me and keeping me safe. God, thank you for loving me. I could never possibly thank you enough for all you have done for me.
I want to be more like you. Please continue to teach me, mold me, shape me into the woman you want me to be. I want to live the life you intended me to live. I want to forever follow your will for my life. Please help me use this life you gave me for your honor. As I do not want to ever waste one single moment I have been given. Never let me forget the precious value of this life… never let me take it for granted.
Please forgive me for my shortcomings… for not always trusting you. For the many many mistakes I have made in my life, and the ones I know I will make in the future. But mostly forgive me for the times I have not honored you. I am so thankful you never turn your back on me no matter how many times I mess up. I am truly so unworthy of your unconditional love. You are so beautiful and I am so humbled by your obvious presence in my life. I want to be at your side forever. I want to be lost in you. Please never let me go. For at your side, I know I will always find joy, peace, hope, inspiration, dreams and love.
My life belongs to you.
Courtney
